How do I know how you feel?
I see you are tired and sore, and I know the stairs are hard for you but how do I know if you are ready?
Your eyes are as sharp as they were when you were a pup.
Remember the night you woke us up barking? Your howl let us know you were scared, which scared us too! I creeped in the room where you were... afraid yet bravely making your stand facing the presence in front of you. Terrified I looked with you....It was a balloon! With helium fleeting away it had begun to bob and bounce along just at the right height so it looked a person's head moving in the dark, we laughed with relief.
Your ears can still hear a bunny scamper in the yard yet your body won't let you chase it away. So you look at it and growl....a funny little growl.
You still hear us coming to the door when we get home yet now you stay in your spot. Your tail wags and your eyes squint...you smile your sweet doggie smile and you wait for us to come to greet you because you just can't get up sometimes to greet us.
Do you look up at the kitchen counter and think of the time you stole 2 loaves of bread? Or the time you took the left over chicken that had been so deliciously baked in butter? Did you think at the time.."Mommy will be so mad but it looks so good, and she loves me no matter what!"
I think you convinced yourself it was worth it because you dragged that carcass dripping in butter all the way to our bed where you climbed up on the 200 dollar comforter and ate it.
Do you remember playing puppy chase and sock nose with your kids? Do you wish you still could?
The large tumor on your arm is making it harder every day. Your hips feel the strain with every move and getting up is so hard. Sometimes even finding a comfortable position on your bed is difficult. Your 12 and that doesn't seem that old.
How do I know if your ready?
How will I know if I am?
Am I selfish for not wanting this?
You have been our friend.
loyal and loving
Always ready for a pet....
a walk
a kiss
a hug
and always ready to share what we are eating.
What will we do without you?
How do we know?
blessings and thanks for visiting